Sunday, July 20

Can you have it all?

So, I haven't blogged for almost a month. Why? Work, work and more work. I wouldn't mind, but I am actually very workshy. I want less work and more freedom in my life. I've been promoted in the part-time job, the freelance stuff had gone bonkers, so I find myself working all day, coming home, putting Mini Meep to bed, then working all night. Then off to bed and it all starts again.

And that's not to mention the house, which is quite literally a building site, covered in scaffolding and surrounded by a cloud of dust, which has worked its way through every tiny gap so that everything inside is covered in a thin layer of grime. So when I'm not working on work, I'm painting, sanding, varnishing, stripping (wallpaper, not myself).

I haven't seen my friends, I haven't read much, I haven't watched films, I haven't been on long walks with Blod, I haven't been to the beach. Blimey, I even had - and I can't believe I'm going to admit this - about 2cms of underarm hair growth. Blee.

I like my job, I'm happy that I have a 'skill' that people want to pay me for, I'm, chuffed to bits to have this house in this lovely village that will be fab when it's finished (in about 2012). But there is so much other stuff I want to do too.

I want:
To study meditation
To get fit again
To have more babies
To do an art class
To have a beautiful garden (no sniggering at the back)
To improve my Welsh
To write my blog more
To learn Spanish
To do a creative writing class
To get back into swimming
To do more photography modules
To get into yoga
To bake more
To make fig jam from the figs in the garden
To write a book
To read more books
To go back to volunteering
To make summer pudding with the raspberries and redcurrants in my garden
To learn to sing
To visit Italy
To do a road trip in America
To take a dance class
To learn to sew
To live by the sea
To save up and buy a campervan
To go back to Thailand
To visit Vietnam
To grow most of my own veg
To teach

Life is just so full of possibilities - how on earth are you meant to fit everything in? And how do you do everything you want to do a)well and b) mindfully? I think I need a guru.

But for this year? Finish the house is the priority. And get fit. And do another photography course. And do more cooking.

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous9:29 am

    I'm with you on all of that. I have a tadalist of 'Things I would like to do when I have the time'. Ha!

    You have always been like this though, every since I've known you and it becomes even more difficult when you have babies and a house to sort out.

    I have started writing though, although I don't get to do it as often as I like. I 'book' afternoons off and Martin takes Maisie to grandma's or something.

    I'm going to do a creative writing course in September as well if you want to join me!